Which is the right path??

Thought things can get better now but it don't seem to be. Grandma is hospitalised again and this time she was admitted to SGH. Her heart is swollen now..

Letricia told me today that she felt very pain to see grandma suffer and if she agreed with me to opt out the installation of pace maker in her heart the other time, she would not have suffer now. Well, at that moment, I have asked myself who in this family will not feel painful. I knew I was very cruel when replied to the poll. I opted out the option and told her its not that I do not want grandma to live or I do not love her, but it is really suffering for her to struggle to live. Let her make her choice whether she wanna live on or let go..Well, in the end, majority made the choice to prolong her life..

Everything is so cruel and contradicting. Isn't it? Coming to this stage, I have taken it very calmly and let nature takes it path.

Mentally drained out..I always thought I have all my things planned out in my path but sometimes, they just not going the way I want!!!